Random Thoughts and Doodles

Asian Kitchen

2011-12-17T13:07:00.006+08:00

For our honeymoon, we went to Singapore. We, of course, went to the usual places visitors go to - including the malls. :D In one of our mall adventures, we chanced upon Asian Kitchen. We were already very hungry from all the walk so we decided to look no further and try it out.

We ordered their beef fried rice (sorry - can't really recall what it's called now), chili crab, and some xiao long bao.

The rice was good! One can eat it on its own actually. It was very flavorful and spicy - and we both like spicy foods. :)

Chili crab - We decided to try this mainly because we're in Singapore and we were told chili crab is a must try. I am not a fan of crabs - they are yummy, yes, but eating them is too troublesome (my sister Kim, who is very patient and skilled in de-shelling - is there such a word?!? - crabs and is nice enough to give me some, can attest to this) This one I loved though because the shells are so soft you can actually eat all of it! And the sauce was just right - not too salty but not bland. One could really taste the crab flavor :)

Xiao Long Bao is sort of like siomai with soup inside. Was able to first try this in Sydney. And when we learned that it is available in Singapore (and then we also found out we have it here in Manila now - Crystal Jade and Lugang! - late I know…), we didn't think twice on ordering it. I forgot to tell my hubby about the hot soup inside so he sort of scalded his tongue when he took a bite - but that didn't change the fact we enjoyed it! :)

Asian Kitchen - not sure if it's a fast-food chain in Singapore but we had decent food there. :) We didn't order dessert there though - because we found out about mr. bean! We love the soy ice cream!!! We made it a point to buy some everyday! :)

Lemuria

2011-10-27T22:58:00.024+08:00

Very long overdue but I wanted to share some of the nice places my hubby (then fiancé) and I have been to.. :) Won't go too far back (might mix up things.. hehe).

Valentines this year (did I mention this is long overdue?) - he wanted to surprise me and was trying to hide where we would be going... that failed though since he still wasn't able to help himself and told me the place's name: Lemuria :)

The place was a bit hard to find - or maybe it was just because we took a wrong turn. :P But when we finally got there, I knew it was worth it. The place was nice, cozy, and private. When we got there, we were directed to a table in the Lavender room. We were only the second couple there but throughout the meal the other tables got occupied - probably 'cause it's Valentines and people were really looking for nice date places. :D

We were given complimentary bread with butter and some oil I could no longer remember. Since it's been so long, all I could say is I really enjoyed the bread - I believe one had walnuts - am not a fan of nuts but I liked this one. :)

For starters, we had soup. Mine was Mushroom and Gruyere - a creamy forest mushroom soup topped with gratinated Swiss cheese.

Hubby had Prawn Bisque - Lemuria's take on a classic soup, with orange and pernod.

Both soups were thick and packed with flavor - making them a bit hard to finish. I would skip soup next time.

Next up are the mains. I had the Kurobuta Pork Belly. Menu description: slow braised Japanese pork then lightly browned, served with salaradise potatoes, porcini mushrooms, roasted figs and peaches, and scented with a red wine reduction.

This, I really enjoyed. The pork was of melt-in-your-mouth goodness. Am not a fan of fruity flavors in main dishes but this one is an exception. The serving was generous yet we finished everything - except for the potatoes - a feeble attempt at reducing carb intake. :)

For hubby, he had Sea Bass - pan seared Chilean sea bass with a mushroom risotto and fresh vierge.

This is also good, but we felt serving was not as generous as the pork belly. Nevertheless, we enjoyed it.

And of course, me being me, dessert is a must!

Forgot what this was called - it wasn't that great too. I am in constant search for good desserts and I could honestly say I've had better.

Can't remember exactly how much but our total bill was around 3k+.

The whole evening was magical - the trip there, the place, the ambiance, the food... but most of all, the company. :)

I'm Back! :D

2011-10-26T10:33:00.004+08:00

After a very loooong break, I'm back! :D I was meaning to revive the blog for some time now, but I just couldn't remember my username AND password (my fault, i know...).

There will be a significant change in the mood of my posts (as seen in my rewrite of some poems). I recently got married to the man of my dreams - the same person some older entries pertain to. My older posts border on bitterness and angst and I lack those emotions now (lucky lucky me!) so I decided to just post about anything and everything that comes to mind :)

Flight

2011-03-06T20:52:00.002+08:00

As promised, poem #2 rewritten... (formerly titled: "...") - click here to access the old version. :)

I dreamt of flying
and of the thrill, awe, and excitement it gives

But no, I wasn't the one with the wings
I wasn't the one gliding through the clouds
I wasn't the one flying
for I am afraid of falling

I'm terrified of jumping
I'm afraid my wings won't flap
I fear all the uncertainties around me

Do I need to jump at a specific time?
Do I need to have a certain angle?
What if my calculations aren't correct?
What if the wind I'm counting on fails me?
Will I fall into oblivion?

I may never get to fly
For I am afraid of falling
And I am terrified of jumping...

But then he came
He encouraged me to jump
And told me he'd be there to catch me

So I did.
I didn't fall.

I flew.
I am flying.
And I will keep on flying
For as long as I can...
For as long as he is here flying with me...

Rewritten with happy thoughts :)

2011-03-03T13:22:00.003+08:00

It's been three years since I've last updated this blog... and a lot of things have happened. I intend to try rewriting some of my poems / lit files with a new flavor - one of happiness... :) First one would be an untitled one which I would be giving a title for this version (please click here to go to the old version):)

Dreams

Once I dreamt of flying high
And being able to touch the sky
Then I dreamt of corals rare
That their beauty in my eyes they'll bare

I also dreamt of flowers in bloom
Serenading me with all sorts of tunes
(I then dreamt of a snow in June
Caressing me once in a blue moon)

Then I dreamt of having you
And now it's all coming true...

Conqueror of dreams, we thank thee
For helping us see and do what needs be
And now that we finally have each other
We'll start living our own "happily-ever-after"...

10th floor

2008-10-27T08:42:00.000+08:00

I had a weird dream last night. I was scaling a 10-storey building. Yes, scaling... I know I could have just used the elevator, or even the stairs... but for some reason, I chose to scale the building. So, there I was, trying to climb to the 10th floor.

The first steps were very difficult. I kept on falling. But soon, I got the feel of it and later on, I felt myself moving up. I was on the 7th floor when realization hit me. It seemed to me that no matter how much more I climb, the distance between me and the 10th floor doesn't seem to change. I still remain to be in the 7th floor. I was faced with two choices. Should I give up, let go and just hope that after my fall from the 7th floor, I'd somehow manage to survive? I will surely get hurt - a lot - but there's still a chance of survival. Or should I keep on climbing and hope against hope that I can somehow close the distance between me and the top floor? Wouldn’t that be akin to blindly reaching for something? And what if I exhaust myself before I succeed in closing the gap? I will fall and completely break myself... by then, would I even have the energy to pick myself up?

I woke up before I got to deciding between the two. Somehow, I understand the dream now... but I still don't know which choice to take.

What crossed my mind were even more questions: why did I decide to scale that building? Well, given I really wanted to scale, why, oh why, did I pick that building to scale? Why didn't I opt for something lower to start with? Or why didn't I just choose a building whose top floor doesn't move away?!?

...

2008-08-09T07:56:00.004+08:00

I dreamt of flying

and of the thrill, awe, and excitement it gives

But no, I wasn't the one with the wings

I wasn't the one gliding through the clouds

I wasn't the one flying

for I am afraid of falling

I'm terrified of jumping

I'm afraid my wings won't flap

I fear all the uncertainties around me

Do I need to jump at a specific time?

Do I need to have a certain angle?

What if my calculations aren't correct?

What if the wind I'm counting on fails me?

Will I fall into oblivion?

I may never get to fly

For I am afraid of falling

And I am terrified of jumping

Lesson from the White Queen :)

2008-07-28T06:48:00.004+08:00

wishful thinkings

helpless beings

an imaginary world in

the actuality that is reality

almost but not quite

real but imagined

everything and nothing

yearnings

options

understandings

what could have beens

and what ifs

in a blink of an eye

things could change

in a blink of an eye

nothing can be everything and everything can be nothing

gather up the courage to dive

for implicit statements may tell something... but not exactly everything

open to the possibility of the impossible

red... orange... green

what are you waiting for?

P.S. Started out with one line.. e ayaw umalis sa utak ko nun line, ayan hahahaha!!! :))

Introducing Delusion :)

2008-05-27T14:33:00.001+08:00

It is unfortunate that Delusion is not tall, dark and handsome. He is merely very tall, very dark and very handsome... but of course, this is also according to him :P

Delusion is a being with a world of his own. :) He is a man of few words... very few words... but numerous talents. I've known him for almost a decade now and I can attest to his genius :) (He can draw; He can write; He solves software and hardware problems like he's munching on some snacks! :D)... He has complete control and understanding of everything around him. For him, everything centers on him and him alone... but mind you, he isn't egotistic... just in certain aspects of his life :P

Miss Construed is a naturally sociable person. She has no problems dealing with all sorts of personalities.

Delusion fancies Miss Construed... a lot. Though he never admits it out loud, it is very eminent in how he talks about her all the time and how her every action affects him. But of course, only a few friends know this (those few friends have now probably doubled due to this post ... that is, if they realize who Delusion is :P). And Delusion, being true to his name, and loyal to his projected image, insists on the opposite...

In his world, Miss Construed is head-over-heels in love with him. She'd do anything to be near him. And now, their unexpected temporary separation is driving him nuts :D...

Delusion still can't admit (even to himself) his true feelings.. or probably, he, himself, isn't aware of it yet (fine, let's give him the benefit of the doubt:P). So he tries (stress on the word "tries") to divert his attention to other people... Miss FX, Miss Badminton, and Miss (es) ... nevermind :P (pardon the lack of creativity; I just don't know them well enough to know their names ... and since they're not Miss Construed, they only comprise around 10% (combined) of Delusion's stories :D) Stories of Delusion's interactions with them to follow (depending on how he'll react to this :P)

I've tried (unsuccessfully though) to make Delusion realize how he really feels towards Miss Construed and act before he loses the chance to do so. But he's very stubborn and he just won't listen to any other views (Yes Delusion, you are as stubborn as a mule! :P) Hopefully, those who know who Delusion is will help me convince him to take action ... fast! (or as suggested by a mutually close friend, at least before you go... *clues on Delusion's identity here!!!*) :P

So Delusion, get ready... your equally-stubborn friends will start badgering you :)

Hope - Agony - Dream ... 3?

2008-05-15T09:00:00.005+08:00

Disclaimer: For the purpose of making this easier to write and read, I'll have Hope and Dream take on female personas and Agony take on a male one. :)

I used to really hate Dream (ok, hate is such a strong word... maybe dislike?). In my eyes, Dream has it easy. She may have her own Agony (where she could be Hope) who's also going for his own Dream... but still, Dream has another Agony waiting for her. Hope, on the other hand, is waiting for Agony but it's uncertain if she is someone else's Dream.

Dream could always opt to go with Agony. Hope may be shattered at first, but at least she won't have to wait and hold onto nothing if there really is nothing. She could start getting on with her life.

Or, Dream could straight out say No to Agony and let him move on with his life. Maybe then, he'd start noticing Hope.

Dream has a choice. So, Dream generally has it easier.

Now, after being amidst certain ... things? ... I understand her more. I understand that there really are times when there's nothing that can be done except smile, do nothing, and just let everything around you unfold. There are times when Dream just can't do anything. All she can do is ignore everything and continue living her own life, her own way. She may hurt Agony but that's part of it.

the beauty (and horrors :D) of one-sided love affairs...hahaha :D

bora hangover :D

2008-05-15T07:51:00.005+08:00

I wanna go back (we all do :D) ... hehehe...

I've had a lot of fun and met new friends at the same time. Hopefully, we get to have a second (and third, fourth, etc.) trip :)

Tama nga si Roxy, travelling like this is addicting... Rox, kelan next hop? :)

Island hoppers, pics ha? :)

Note: pics to follow ... probably in my multiply site :)

kung me shakes na ganun lang sana dito... hehehe...

Hope - Agony - Dream ... update :D

2008-05-06T13:22:00.004+08:00

(Disclaimer: To the Original Agony (you know who you are), no, you're not the 1st Agony I'm referring to here... neither are you the 2nd... besides, we haven't talked for quite some time now (and I know you still haven't gotten over your Dream... whether you admit it or not) :P ... but I also have other friends who, just like you, embody "Agony")

I just had another talk with Agony. He's over his Dream now and he just realized that Hope's always been there. I don't know what'll happen but I can only *hope* he'll get his new Dream. ;)

I talked to another friend and realized he's also Agony. He's blinded by his Dream... so much that he forgot about everything else around him. Now, he's slowly realizing the difference between reality and dreams... and that sometimes (okay, most of the times) we just really cannot have our Dreams... but we can still have the Hope to build new Dreams :)

Hope - Agony - Dream entry :)

Note: labo? hehehe oo malabo talaga :D

calling all lourdesians :)

2008-05-02T10:23:00.004+08:00

We went to Pangasinan for 2 main reasons: 1) to attend Tita Elsie's birthday celebration and 2) to visit the Hundred Islands :)

Unfortunately, due to some risks involved (car had to be left somewhere overnight), we had to forego the plan of visiting said islands... we went to Covelandia Family Resort. The place was nice. (more on this in another entry)...

During Tita Elsie's birthday party however, we met lots of people, the most unforgettable being Fr. Bok. He's a parish priest of the Our Lady of Lourdes Parish in Salasa, Bugallon, Pangasinan. According to the signs in the church, it was founded in 1714 (could possibly be one of the oldest churches in the country) and is considered a National Shrine. However, I don't know if it's just me, but I've always tagged the phrase "National Shrine" with grandiose architecture and well-maintained interiors. This was not the case with the church we visited. The architecture is good but old age (and most possibly poor maintenance) probably took toll on the building. It still held traces of its former grandeur but it's a very far cry from the shrines here in Manila (some chapels here might even be better off than this). As per Fr. Bok, he and Tito Bob (Tita Elsie's husband... one of Papa's best friends) have been slowly restructuring the shrine. They've dug through the floorings and found antique tiles. (Former priests must have chosen to place new tiles on top of the old ones instead of removing them and then replacing with new ones.) They're prioritizing the church itself, unlike others (I choose not to name any) who opt to start off lavishing the priest's chambers, thus depleting the resources even before actual work on the church begins.

Fr. Bok told us he had lots of plans for the church and its parishioners. However, due to extreme lack of funds (they are situated in a place where people mostly rely on the church for their needs - and this is where most of their funds go to), they could not afford to actuate everything they have in mind...

I'd like to help and in my simple way, I'd try to... and I'd also like to call on people especially the Lourdesians (my sister is one and I believe she's already tried to inform her classmates) to help them in any way they can. A small thing to us may mean the world to them :)

View pics of the church here

feb14.txt

2008-04-04T11:24:00.002+08:00

yet another product of boredom... i know this is way way overdue... just had enough idle time to browse my misc folder and found feb14.txt :) hehehe...

from a friend's chatlogs (can't use friend's name... as per friend's request... sana maalala nya pa na sya nagsbai nyan hehe :P) :

friend: oh.. i dunno
friend: isa akong bato ngayon eh
friend: or puno
friend: walang pakiramdam
friend: sumasabay lang sa ihip ng hangin
friend: kuntento na sa onting dilig at sikat ng araw
friend: actually pwede mo na gawan ng tula yan

so pano ba itutuloy? hmm...

isa akong bato ngayon
o puno
walang pakiramdam
sumasabay lang sa ihip ng hangin
kuntento na sa konting dilig at sikat ng araw
walang iniindang sakit o dalamhati
di alintana ang lamig o init
nagmamatyag
at walang imik
nakikiramdam
kahit manhid
tuloy lang sa pagmamasid
sa paghihintay
di kikibo
di gagalaw
tuloy lang...

1

2008-03-27T08:21:00.001+08:00

Isang tanong na nagwakas sa simula...
Tuloy?
Isang sagot na nagsimula sa wakas...
Oo.

Bakit?
Kasi...
Bakit?
Ganun.
Bakit?
Basta...

Isa-isa
Pira-piraso
Unti-unti
Umaalis
Nawawala
Sila.
Kayo.
Ako.

mi soliloquio

2008-03-11T09:34:00.003+08:00

"Smile and the world smiles with you; weep and you weep alone..."

Someone once told me this, and it has stuck to me since...

But sometimes, smiling just won't do any good...

Stop hiding. Cry your eyes out if you need to...

Drop the act and let go. Give up your mask for even just a second...

Then after that, you can try smiling once again...

reminiscing azeus ot dinners :D

2008-02-23T00:03:00.002+08:00

Just got home from a gt with erika and aimee (sa uulitin! :D).... and during the talk me naalala ko... hehehe... ayun humagalpak uli kami sa tawa.... tatay jo, kung mabasa mo to peace tayo ha? hehe... ikaw mag-aayos ng reunion di ba? :D

okay so on one of those (many) nights na nag OT kami sa Azeus noon, we ordered some dinner from a resto (forgot kung saan e...) and jo was the one who ordered for us (Jojo Ty po ang name nya :D). The conversation wen something like:

Girl: Ano pong name sir?
Jojo: Jojo Ty
Girl: Jojo Dy?
Jojo: Ty
Girl: Ano po un last name?
Jojo: Ty
Girl: Spelling po?
Jojo: T-Y
Girl: Ok po. Pawait na lang po.

After more than an hour of waiting we decided to follow-up. They said it was already delivered and should have arrived already. We then went out to check and found a delivery guy telling the person at the reception that the address stated matched our office. But the person said that there's no such person in the office. Since it was from the same resto we ordered our dinner from, we checked... hoping it was for us. Lo and behold, the name on the receipt was:

"Jojo Tiway"

hehehehe...

Peace tayo tay jo ha! Lilibre mo pa kami sa april! :D

teleserye aftermath :D

2008-02-19T08:02:00.002+08:00

Sa dami ng naghahanap ng tamang tao para sa kanila, sa dami ng naghihintay para matagpuan ang nakatadhana para sa kanila, paano kung nakita mo sya? Ano ang maaaring mag-udyok sa iyo na iwan sya?

Siya ang tamang para sa iyo. Pero paano kung hindi ikaw ang tama para sa kanya?

Siya ang nakatakda para sa iyo ngunit paano na kung hindi ikaw ang naitakda para sa kanya?

Alin ang mas tama? Ang magpatuloy sa piling ng isa't isa dahil sa sya ang tama sa iyo? O ang hayaan syang makasama ang tama para sa kanya?

Ano ang mas matimbang? Ang kaligayahan mo o ang kaligayahan nya?

Ano ang mas masakit? Ang di mo sya makasama o ang makitang hindi pa lubos ang kaligayahan nya?

La lang... narinig ko ung linya (paraphrase lang nung unang part) sa isang teleserye kagabi... napag-isip tuloy ako... :D Di ko na maalala kung anong teleserye e.. palipat-lipat kasi :D

thadde valentine dinner 2008 :)

2008-02-15T09:08:00.005+08:00

thadde!!! thanks thanks kagabi! :D i had a great time :) sa uulitin :) (buti na lang may taxi na pumayag! hehehe)

when it comes to candid shots, dyosa, parang lahat andun ka ah! :D hehehe...

je, thanks for the pics! i'll try to upload mine later :) (mar, ikaw din ha! :D)

sino punta sa sunday? promise, try ko... will inform you tom :)

thadde @ gerry's grill (trinoma) feb. 14, 2008

of stress, ennui and daydreams...

2008-02-14T13:41:00.004+08:00

after weeks of unending pressure and non-stop work, i am left with nearly nothing to do (at least for the day - bukas nakaqueue na silang lahat...)

boredom + lack of sleep = unproductive kaye :)

so, to appease my restless mind (haha!), I, with the help of my very cooperative teammates ;) "researched" on the possible gimmicks we could have :) ... from paintball to karting to boracay getaway :D the possibilities!!! sana lang me matuloy!!! (un bora nga pala tuloy na .. daw :D - sama kayo? heheheh ... friends meet other friends ito :D)

hay... ang nagagawa ng walang magawa :D

Three Nights

2008-02-11T11:24:00.000+08:00

bakit ba kasi kailangan pang tawirin ang linyang yan? di ba pwedeng mamalagi na lang sa bahagi kong ito ng mundo?

at sino bang nagsabing madali lang makarating sa kabila? mapapalad ang mga nagkaroon ng pagkakataong makatawid... di gaya ko... wala akong lakas ng loob na suungin ang mga harang... di ko kayang humakbang papalapit nang walang pag-aalinlangan...

ilang linya ang kailangang tawirin para makamtan ang diumano'y "minimithing kaligayahan" - yung tinatawag nilang tagumpay? di ba maaaring dito na lang ako? hindi raw... di daw matatapos hangga't di ako tumatawid... o sumusubok man lang...

ang hirap... may tumulak man sa akin at giyahan ako papalapit sa linya, wala pa ring kasiguruhang hindi ako maiipit ng harang...

ayun na! may tumulak na nga! napasadsad ako palapit sa linya... iwas, iwas, takbo!

taya!

sabi ko na, sa huli ako pa rin ang talo...

Note: hango po ito sa text message na:
"It's better to cross the line and suffer the consequences than to just stare at it for the rest of your life... rules of patintero"

Three Nights is the English term for Patintero according to this site:
http://www.seasite.niu.edu./Tagalog/Filipino_Games/mga_larong_pilipino.htm

ahehehe :)

LSS 2 (and 3) :)

2008-02-05T08:39:00.000+08:00

Teanuts!!! kasalanan mo ito!!! :D hehehe... Salamat sa mp3s... meron ka lyrics nung Dumaan Ako? di ko mahanap e... :)

Sa Pagitan ng Ngayon at Kailanman
by Gary Granada

Sabi nga..
Sana ang buhay laging tama o mali
At ang katanunga’y simpleng oo o hindi
Kung ganun dalangin kong ikaw ay mamalagi
Sa pinakatangi mong pinakamimithi

Ngunit paano kung ang hinahanap mong ligaya
Ay nagkataong nalaman mong naroon pala
Sa magkabilang mundong magsinghalaga sa iyo
Paano ba mananatiling totoo

Ang galak at dalamhati ay paano hahatiin
At paano ka pipili kung wala kang pipiliin
Ano ang gagawin ng pusong di mapagbigyan
Ang magkatunggaling pangako at pakiramdam
May isang paruparong paroroo’t paririyan
Sa pagitan ng ngayon at kailanman

Paano ka magpapasya, paano mo mapagkasya
Paano ba mapag-isa ang isa’t isa

Kung isang araw magtalo ang panata’t panaginip
At ang iisa mong puso minsan ay magdal’wang-isip
Sa kalagitnaan ng pag-asa’t pag-asam
Sa dulo’t bungad ng pinagtagpo’t natagpuan
Ibig kong alamin kung ang pag-ibig may puwang
Sa pagitan ng ngayon at kailanman

Ano ang sukatan, alin nga ba ang mas mabigat
Sa isang sugatan, ang tunay ba o ang nararapat

Kung isang araw maghalo..
Ano ang gagawin ng puso kong nahihibang
Na nalilibang, na nagigibang naninimbang
Sa pagitan ng ngayon at kailanman

merienda buffet!

2008-01-25T13:15:00.000+08:00

Remedy Team @ Dad's Saisaki Kamayan

with Roxy.. sarap food! :D

Last Wednesday, 23 January 2008, our team went to Dad's Saisaki Kamayan in Glorietta for a merienda buffet... Sobrang sulit! (P157.00 per head - with bottomless drinks - of which I had around 5 glasses of iced tea - 10+1 pa :D) :) hehehe... Their puto-bumbong was superb! The bibingka and other food were also okay :) I ate a lot... I think it could be around 2-3 days of my normal consumption :P heheheh... I ate so much I didn't feel well the next day... napilitan tuloy mag SL! (vince bad ka talaga! kailangan ba iannounce sa india kung bakit ako SL? hehehe)... I ruined my own diet.. owel... may 4 months pa naman before bora e! kaya yan! hehehe...

Sana maulit!!! GL8, Thadde, HP / Azeus pips, tayo rin? hehehe

Ella, thanks for the pics! :D

LSS

2008-01-25T07:36:00.000+08:00

just heard it again in the radio this morning.. na LSS ako :D hehehe...

Sundo
by Imago

I.
Kay tagal kong sinusuyod ang buong mundo
Para hanapin, para hanapin ka
Nilibot ang distrito ng iyong lumbay
Pupulutin, pupulutin ka

Rerfrain:
Sinusundo kita,
Sinusundo

Chorus:
Asahan mong mula ngayon pag-ibig ko’y sayo
Asahan mong mula ngayon pag-ibig ko’y sayo

II.
Sa akin mo isabit ang pangarap mo
Di kukulangin ang ibibigay
Isuko ang kaba tuluyan kang bumitaw
Ika’y manalig
Manalig ka..

Refrain:
Sinusundo kita
Sinusundo

Chorus:
Asahan mong mula ngayon pag-ibig ko’y sayo
Asahan mong mula ngayon pag-ibig ko’y sayo

Handa na sa liwanag mo
Sinuyod ang buong mundo
Maghihintay sayo’ng sundo

:D

Congratulations!!!

2008-01-13T13:34:00.000+08:00

Here's another sign that we are indeed getting older :D... yet another friend announced her engagement :)... Congrats lene!!!

I'd like to take this chance to congratulate those who got married / engaged before :D

Glennda - congrats uli! Baby Thimo is so cute! Take care of yourself there! :) We miss you!!!
Ria - congratulations as well!!! Saw pics from Tal's phone... Hope to see you soon! :)
Khatt - Congrats!!! (haha, gasgas na un word ... ) Magleleave na ko sa date na yun!!! Promise!!!

To all of you, best wishes and God bless!!! :)

Salamat.. :)

2008-01-13T13:28:00.000+08:00

Just wanted to say thanks to all the people who endure my rants and bitterness :)... Salamat sa advices. Salamat sa mga kwento. Salamat sa pakikinig :) It means a lot :)

(Erika, Aimee, Kitkat, Roxy, Madel, Alwin, Ma, Pa, Kai, Kim... salamat po!!! :D )

Happy New Year!!!

2008-01-02T07:30:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year everyone!!!

Hopefully, 2008 will be as good as, if not better than, 2007!!! I'm already looking forward to some planned gimmicks :) hehehe...

Happy 2008 again!

Back to work... :)

Smile! :)

2007-12-29T13:24:00.000+08:00

I always smile.

I smile when I hear a good joke. I smile when I read a great book. I smile when I'm with my friends and family.

I smile when I'm happy. I smile when I'm contented. I smile when I'm delighted. I smile when I'm pleased.

I smile when I'm sad. I smile when I'm hurting. I smile when I'm depressed. I smile to hide the tears.

I always smile.

Merry Christmas!!!

2007-12-25T09:50:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!!

Thanks for being part of my life :)

God Bless!!!

Hide and Seek

2007-12-22T21:37:00.000+08:00

I'm good in hiding...

I'm sad but you won't notice it unless I tell you. I'm hurting but you won't know if I don't want you to.

I'm good in hiding but I simply suck at finding...

I can't read your meanings unless you state it directly. I can't understand your actions if you don't tell me explicitly.

I suck at finding... which is probably why I still haven't found you.

I'm good in hiding... Maybe that's why you still haven't found me too...

Where is Happiness?

2007-12-20T14:57:00.000+08:00

It is a known fact that we all want to be happy. But how exactly can you be happy if you don’t even have an inkling as to what could make you happy?

How can you say you’re happy? Could it be from how often you smile or laugh? But what if you’re just faking it? Can anyone tell you how you feel just basing on your aura? Or would any “observations” remain as they are: mere observations… not exactly true but relatively true (depends on how a person sees it)… If you say you’re happy just because you feel you’re happy… how sure are you that you really are happy and you’re not just convincing yourself to think and feel that way?

And if one isn’t happy, how can she gain that state? Where should she start looking? What should she start doing? And if she finds nothing, when should she start giving up? Why is happiness so elusive? Are we sure that each and every one of us is to have our own happy endings… or are some people destined to just be watching on the sidelines?

I look around me and I see smiling faces… my friends having a blast, my sister’s smile reaching her eyes, yet another sister looking proud as she played her latest composition, my mom and dad enclosed in each other’s embrace… and I knew, I just knew… I’m one of the watchers… Because even if I don’t exactly feel the same happiness they had, just seeing them with it made me feel I had even just a part of it. :)

Note:
Sorry… being cynical seems to be my past time lately. :)

Am I Lonely?

2007-12-20T14:11:00.001+08:00

A friend told me that lately, I seem to be emitting a weird aura... as if something changed and no one can actually pinpoint what it is. He told me that I seem to be lonelier and more "subdued" (I don’t know exactly what he means but he was able to conclude this thru the short ym chats we occasionally have).

It made me wonder... have I really been lonelier? I can't really tell. Anyone, please… have I been really??

I know for a fact that I haven't been excessively happy the last few days, but does it actually translate to a worsening case of loneliness? And if indeed I am sadder than usual, why? I can't seem to find the reason why I could be more depressed. Nothing of much importance has happened... (my life is boring I know) and in fact, I gained new friends :) and I have achieved some of my minor (short-term) goals in life (and still in the process of getting more :P)... shouldn't I be happier?

The comment bugged me and made me reexamine my inner feelings… yes, I feel more tired than usual (I have no idea how it could be possible since my work load has decreased incredibly – compared to what I used to do in my previous company). Has it been showing in how I express myself?

So, I asked another friend. And she told me I seem to be in a state where “things seem to be stable”. Keyword: “seem”. I suppose it’s because I want it to be considered stable so I convince myself that it is…

Oh well...

maraming salamat!!!

2007-12-20T13:57:00.000+08:00

super late, I know... but still... thanks to everyone who attended last dec 8... esp to those who gave messages...

thadde, promise, pinakinggan ko uli pag alis nyo at humagalpak ako sa katatawa... saan nyo ba nahugot yung mga yun??? at ang "serious" messsages nyo... sa cd na lang yun.. wala nang ibang makakarinig... manlaglag ba?!? hehehehe...

erika and hamster, thanks sa messages! muah!!! GL8, salamat sa gifts!!! fezter, naks!!! salamat sa book at syempre sa pagpunta :) hehehehe :)

kim, san mo nakuha ang mga pictures na yun (akala ko naitago ko na lahat ng ganun)??? hay... sana pinili mo man lang yun mga maaayos ang kuha ko! but no!!! you grabbed the opportunity for revenge!!! you evil sister you!!! hehehe.. seriously, thanks sa pag-effort!!! :)

ma, pa, thanks!!! mwah!!!!

again thanks everyone!!!

hectic...

2007-11-19T08:18:00.000+08:00

*Sigh* ... had a very hectic weekend (yes, I suck at titles; can't help it though :D)... Last Saturday we had a post birthday and thanksgiving celebration for Kim. I can honestly (and confidently) say that Friday and Saturday would probably be part of the 10 best days of her life :) hehehe.. *wink wink* :) I'm so happy for you! Mwaah!!! So eventhough we had to slave over that day, it was all worth it. I haven't seen her that happy for a while now. She was (a bit?) sad on her birthday that she actually invited us to watch a movie :) (hehehe, yeah, I've seen One More Chance and it's nice... just thought it would be more realistic had they cut the movie somewhere... the ending made it seem they're playing safe... oh well, maybe it's just the bitter side of me talking because my sisters thought it was logical to end it that way) We slept around 1 am so it's understandable that we woke up only around 9am. Then we had to rush because there was a scheduled trip to Nueva Ecija... to check if a family friend could help Kim go to US faster. Unfortunately, it'll also take around 2-3 years for her papers to be processed. Might as well go with a big agency :) ehehehe... A lot of things happened to us yesterday (Sunday) but I won't give out any details ... since nothing is final yet... but one thing's for sure, it'll change my life, hopefully for the better. (No, it does not concern me going abroad though I'd surely want to :P)

congrats!!!

2007-11-08T12:49:00.000+08:00

congrats kim!!! told you you'd make it! kaw pa! :D now that you've passed nclex, la ka na iintindihin masyado ha? heheheh... pde na kita utusan magbake! joke! heheheh... anyway, regarding your plans while waiting for your US papers to be processed, you have my support. Basta sabihin mo lang kung ano maitutulong namin, you know we'll always be there to back you up! :D (and while you're there... wag kalimutan ang bilin ko - namin pala ni kai - ha? hehehe... alam mo naman - hopefully - ang type namin :D joke!)

congrats uli!!! mwaaaahhh!!! :)

dressy thursday

2007-11-08T07:31:00.000+08:00

Ok, so I'm not really new to wearing dresses to work :P but this one, I kind of had doubts with. Don't get me wrong, it's not horrible... it's nice. In fact, I can even say it's classy. :) Mom bought this dress months ago and has been nagging me to wear it to work. It's a black button-down knee-length (did I get the adjective arrangement correct? :P) dress. It came with a black belt but my mom and my sister insisted I use the red belt they also bought (so I could complete the look with a pair of red stilettos and a necklace with a heart-shaped key pendant -yes, the one some friends teased me about :P). All in all, the ensemble was actually nice (pardon me for the obvious lack of other adjectives... I'm just not used to describing outfits :D), so what made me fret and worry about wearing it? Three reasons.

First, I need to wear stilettos or, as they (my mom and sister slash fashion consultants :D) said, risk "ruining the effect" of the dress. But since I got a free ride to office (courtesy of Kuya Son... thanks!!! :D), I only have to worry about getting home without getting sprained (or ultimately embarrassed because of tripping - and the likes - which, if I may say, is very likely to happen considering my semi-clumsy nature :D), I have very little reason to contradict them. The problem of going home was partially taken care of since I got in around 7:20 am, I'd be able to go home around 4:20 pm (thank goodness for flexi-time!)... MRT won't be too crowded by then. Also, now that I think about it, I've climbed four flights of stairs (we're in the 4th floor and yes, I don't usually use elevators... kind of serves as part of my daily exercise), and I still don't feel any foreign pain. I kind of got used to high heels. Hopefully, my feet remains at this state by the end of the day :P

Second, it's a button down knee-length dress... meaning it has a slit in front!!! The slit, unfortunately, reaches my mid thigh and I'm not too comfortable exposing so much flesh. I brought a jacket with me so I could use it to cover my legs when I'm seating (gosh!!! can't believe it could even go higher when I'm seated!). Hopefully, the aircon won't be too cold today or I'd freeze to death and mom will lose her eldest child because of a black dress (kidding! :P).

Lastly, I'm quite sure my officemates will be teasing me all day... Oh I so look forward to it! Darn!

GL8@Aveneto - nov 3, 2007

2007-11-05T15:30:00.000+08:00

hay.. saya nung saberday! hehehe... so me advantages din pala nang ganun kaaga magmeet :) ehehe

i expected the movie (30 days of night) to be scary pero owel (i didn't get nightmares that night.. hehehe)... nakakagulat sya and there's so much blood! (i'm afraid of blood so you can just imagine me cringing while watching the film)...

thanks for the pics kang :) teanuts, wb! and un pics pasend din ha? :D

aimee, thanks for the bag and chocolates :D eheheheh... :)

sa mga nanlibre, salamat!!! sa uulitin!!! (hmmm.. lugi kami dun ah! 3 kayo e tapos ganun lang? hehehe.. joke!!!)

so kelan next? hehehe... (erika, aimee, GT!!! :D ok ako kahit saan pa yan! hahahahha!!!)

haberday kat!!!

2007-10-31T16:21:00.000+08:00

haberday kat!!! sarap sarap food! :D hehehe... just wish i could've stayed longer :( tsk tsk tsk... kung wala lang pasok today... owel... next time :D it was really nice seeing you guys again :) ehehe... dami ko di alam buti na lang anjan si rach for the updates on almost everyone! ;)

mar, sensya na la ako pic na kasama ka e :D ehehehe.. pasend nung pics from your phone :) hehehe...

sayang... di *kayo* nakapagvideoke! (o nakapagvideoke ba kayo pag-alis namin?) :D

miss ko na yun ganun kwentuhan sa thadde!!! :D sa uulitin (at sana mas marami tayo)! :D

happy :D

2007-10-31T16:18:00.000+08:00

hmm... la lang... i'm happy...simply happy :D

realizations

2007-10-21T14:32:00.000+08:00

Upon waking up yesterday morning, I went out to get fresh air and lo and behold! I was surprised to see that there were vines growing in the garden! Yes, I go home everyday but somehow (I don't exactly know how), I always overlook that part of the garden. This made me realize how I could probably be overlooking some other aspects of my life... and this is probably why I still can't let go of my angst and bitterness. (and right after I just posted my thank yous :P ironic...)

pahabol thank you :D

2007-10-21T14:22:00.000+08:00

i don't know if i made it clear enough sa previous thank you post ko but here goes:

To my friends, especially to those I incessantly bug everyday for pointless chats and endless rants, thanks for keeping me sane :D mwaaahhhhh!!!

thank yous :D

2007-10-20T22:36:00.000+08:00

I saw on a billboard in edsa that today is National Thank You Day... wow! We really have that?! Anyway, yes, I am bitter, angsty, and sometimes, cynical... but I know that I still have a lot to be thankful for (so this is gonna be a bit long (and emotional)... i think :P):

First of all, my family. I feel so blessed to have them. My parents are my greatest role models in life. I believe that if I can be at least half the persons they are, I can consider myself fulfilled. Life hasn't always been good to us. I know all the hardships they endured and all the obstacles they overcame to get where they are now. They did their best to give us the best. And I will forever be thankful for that. My sisters, though we sometimes (ahem!) get into disagreements, are my motivation. They inspire me to aim for higher goals. They help me keep my sanity :P. And for them, my family, I'll do anything and everything. I love you! (and I 'll never tire of saying and showing it :P)

My relatives, especially Lolo Absalon, Lola Aida, Lolo Erning, and my titos and titas who took care of me and my sisters. Thank you for all the love and concern. Thanks for all the little things that mean a lot to us.

My friends. Thadde, GL8, officemates (in all the companies). :P Thadde, thanks for making my high school life meaningful and fun. Though I lost contact during the middle and latter part of college (which I'll always regret), thanks for still remembering and accepting me :P. I may not be as close to some as I want to be, but I'm still grateful for all the memories we had and will be having :P. GL8 (and others not yet included in GL8 yahoogroups hehe... seems we need to add mems :P), thanks for being my lifeline in college... and for still keeping the bond alive until now. To my officemates, thanks for making the workplace as fun as it can be... (yes, I know I tend to be a workaholic... :P so thanks for always reminding me to stop when I really need to...) I've learned a lot from all of you. To all my friends, you showed me the meaning of true er.. friendship :P I will always treasure all of our memories and hopefully, we can keep on making new ones :). (Gimik! Gimik! Gimik!!! :D bilis, habang "free" pa ako heheheh) I cannot ask for better friends than you... you guys are the best friends anyone could ask for!!! :D

And of course, to the Big Man up there. Thanks for giving me my family, my friends, my career (ehehe... would it be wrong if I ask for something better? :P... just in case), and good health (yes, contrary to what my former officemates -- yes, you know who you are -- think, I'm in perfectly good condition... with the exception of occasional migraine attacks and cramps :P). And thanks for always looking after my loved ones and keeping them safe. :D I couldn't ask for more... but actually there's just one more thing... :P (if you know me well enough, you know what it is :P)

boredom

2007-10-19T08:21:00.000+08:00

i didn't know i'd get tired of doing nothing... for the past week (s) i've been idle... Not having anything to do could really be troublesome. So to pass time, I have reviewed my list of friends in Friendster, downloaded mp3s, watched videos in youtube, watched tv episodes in tv-links, took tests in Tickle (hehe... didn't know they have so much tests -- and of varying topics! -- there :D), read some ebooks... what else is there to do???

save me :P

2007-10-10T10:59:00.000+08:00

eheheh.. long story (and i don't want to put too much details here... baka me makabasa na di dapat) basta sa aking probable saviors (alam nyo na kung sino kayo) salamat nang marami!!! hehehehe... told you i need to be saved :D hindi talaga sya si Wind... ehehehe... walang bawian ha? heheheh

(sana di na umabot sa puntong kinatatakutan ko.. eheheh)

question

2007-10-04T10:21:00.000+08:00

a friend asked me if like, love, and inspiration always go hand in hand. when you like / love someone, does he have to inspire you? and if you don't get inspired with that someone, does that mean you don't like / love him? (i know that if someone inspires you, it does not equal to you actually liking / loving that person :D i can say that a certain person's success inspired me to do something about my own life... it doesn't necessarily mean i love that person... he / she may just be some random individual i happen to look up to... i might not even know him / her personally :P)

it made me think ... and think... but i still can't figure it out. :P

any ideas? heheheh...

thadde@greenbelt 28 sept 2007

2007-10-01T09:40:00.000+08:00

hay... saya saya nung friday :D that was actually the first time i went home that late... and considering i didn't have my own transpo then :) btw, tal and choni: thanks sa paghatid!!! hehehe... salamat din sa paghihintay hanggang me taxi nang pumayag maghatid sa akin! :) hehehe...

kat, galing ng iyong "insider" skills hehehe... o di ba? magtulog ka habang la pa masyado gawa uli! ehehehe...

je, good luck :) wow!!! bakasyon!!! hay... i so long for one :) ehehhehe...

ria, grabe long time no see!!! paikot-ikot ka na lang ng mundo ah! heheheh...

jasmin, ok lang yan.. konting tiis pa :D exceed mo expectations nila!!! :D

tami, grabe high school pa ata kita huli nakita :)

grape, good luck po sa board!!! sana pag maluwag na uli sched mo makalakad uli tayo :D tagal ka na namin di nakita e... :)

sa ibang thadde: sana makalakad tayo uli :D tal, saan nga uli yun suggestion mo? anong island un? ehehehe :D

Note to self: do not believe the waiter when he says a serving is good for 10-12 persons (Superbowl ito.. Yang Chow Fried Rice)... heheheh... 6 lang kami naubos na e... di naman kami "gaano" matatakaw!!! hahahaha!!! at hwag titingin sa kakaibang painting (ay pic pala sya!) ehehe... hanggang bago ko matulog naalala ko pa itsura nun! hehehehe...

sa uulitin!

downloadable movies, shows... almost everything :D

2007-09-26T16:25:00.000+08:00

I learned something new today. I learned of the beauty of the site http://www.tv-links.co.uk/

Okay, okay... most people probably know about it already but heck, I don't care!!! I can watch and download a lot of things here... (hehehe... they have Naruto and Death Note among other anime :D) and the file size is significantly smaller (I got Heroes Season 2 ep. 1 at approximately 121 MB) without compromising the video quality.... I'm raving I know... can't help it though.... :D

phone suggestions? :D

2007-09-24T10:22:00.000+08:00

Last Saturday, we went around looking for phones. :) I did some asking around and net browsing beforehand so more or less I had an idea of the units I'm looking for. But alas, as expected the one I like the most is still not available here, and they have no idea when it will be released. :( At first I thought I could wait... but last night (and early today), my phone gave another sign that it won't last that long... I'd probably have to buy one as soon as I get my last pay from HP (sheesh it's already been 2 months!!!). So far my choices are: SE K850 (but it's still not available), SE K800 or K810, Samsung D900i, U600, U300... still looking for other units. The Samsung units are slide phones... any bad inputs on that? Erika said it isn't advisable to get one since it might have problems :( So I'm considering flip phones :D ehehehe... any suggestions?

...

2007-09-17T07:26:00.000+08:00

While waiting in line for the FX to MRT, I don't know what happened. I don't know why but out of nowhere, I thought of you... and I suddenly started crying...

When you left, I was devastated. I should've expected it. You said goodbye but I ignored it, thinking it was just one of your whims. And then you were gone...

You were my bestfriend, my confidante. You were always there to comfort me. Always ready to encourage me. We made promises. We dreamt of great things. (I'm trying to achieve them. I know you know that.) You taught me a lot of things in life and I will forever cherish them.

I miss you Lolo.

Block GL8 :D

2007-09-17T07:24:00.000+08:00

Saya saya! Sana maulit! :D Erika, thanks for the pics! :D

fade

2007-09-11T09:38:00.000+08:00

You have loved him/her for so long, dreamt of things that could have been. But you've accepted that that's all they're going to be: dreams, a part of your make-believe world - a far cry from reality. You want to stop. But how?

How do you make IT fade? How do you tell yourself to stop when everything you do reminds you of him/her? How will you find someone else when you compare everyone to him/her? (when in fact, you know you shouldn't... s/he's not that great of a person anyway... s/he didn't see your worth :P) And for some weird reason, for you, they just don't seem to measure up...

How will you find your Wind when you're still clinging to Tree?

(*Wind and Tree were taken from an email sent to me before... I believe the title is something like "Love in 3 Perspectives" Tree, Leaf, Wind... don't know the writer though...)

complicated

2007-09-11T09:13:00.000+08:00

Why does it have to be so complicated? You know how hard it is to get hurt, yet you unwillingly inflict the same pain to others... Why do we have to ignore the ones who adore us and adore the one who ignores us?

And when you finally decide to "give up", why does it hurt so much? Why does it feel like you lost someone when in fact you never really "had" him/her?

You keep on telling yourself that someday you'll find the right one... one who'll appreciate your worth. But do "somedays" really come? What if the right one turns out to be one of those you chose to ignore? What then?

Complicated...

titles?

2007-09-04T14:46:00.001+08:00

ok.. just found my computer file of poems and my notebook of poems and essays... found out that most (if not all :P) of my works are untitled... (and i placed untitled1, untitled2,...) i'll post some here (those that aren't too personal... heheheh...) and if you have any ideas, title suggestions are most welcome :D

1)

Once I dreamt of flying high
And being able to touch the sky
Then I dreamt of corals rare
That their beauty in my eyes they'll bare

I also dreamt of flowers in bloom
Serenading me with all sorts of tunes
(I then dreamt of a snow in June
Caressing me once in a blue moon)

Then I dreamt of having you
And I knew they won't come true...

Conqueror of dreams, take over me
Spare me the misery and the agony
Of knowing my dreams will never be
For I am just another me...

2)

The audience silently applauded
as the curtains drew to a close
The spotlight slowly faded
as the actors parted ways

Go on, unmask yourself
the show is over
the masquerade has finally ended...

how?

2007-09-03T09:07:00.000+08:00

Note: This should apply to both sexes but for the purpose of this post I'll just be using the pronouns he, his, and him. (It's too troublesome to always type he/she, his/her, him/her.) :P

How exactly do you know if someone likes you? How indeed? Should you observe him and his actions and reactions? Should you watch out for any differences in the way he treats you (compared to how he treats and acts around others)? If he "showers" you with attention (calls, texts, messages, the likes), does that mean you're special? Should you try and catch if he's stealing glances? Should you take his being chivalrous and gentlemanly as signs that he fancies you?

But what if all these things are normal to him? What if he's just being nice and by thinking he likes you, you're actually just fooling yourself? What if you're just pushing yourself further into a trap… one that is of unrequited love?

No matter what the "signs" are, one could never fully read another person's feelings. Emotions and the human heart are way, way more complex than even the most intricate books. They're simply designed to be confusing and unpredictable.

One should not make any assumptions (on just about anything) unless explicitly stated. You just don't know if you're right or wrong. And by the time you figure it out, you'd probably be too caught up in your make-believe world to face reality... or in too much of an agony in a hell you yourself built.

So, how do you tell if someone likes you? Simple... you can't.

thadde! :D

2007-09-01T22:03:00.000+08:00

thadde!!! grabe saya kagabi! thanks thanks!!! sa uulitin... missed you guys! penge pics ha? :D

Hope - Dream - Agony

2007-09-01T21:36:00.001+08:00

Hope likes Agony... a lot. She's willing to do anything for him, always hoping he'll acknowledge her existence someday. He, however, disregards her all too quickly. He ignores her completely. After all, he has eyes only for Dream. She's everything he wants. For him, she's perfect... but he is to Dream as Hope is to him... nothing.

Why can't life be simple? Why can't Dream be Hope so that Agony won't be in, yes, agony? If everyone really has a choice, wouldn't it be easier if Agony just goes and chooses Hope? Wouldn't it make him happier? But alas, for him, the only way to happiness is in Dream's arms. But he couldn't have that now, could he? Because as her name states, she will only be a dream to him... someone he yearns for but could never have. He wants to let go and move on but he simply can't. He's lost without her. Without Dream, he feels empty, void. And he hates that feeling, loathes it even. However, he can't reach out to her... afraid that if he does, she'll leave his side completely, abandoning him in the darkness. And if he loses his light, he might lose any chance he has of ever getting out of the chaotic maze he submerged himself in.

Perhaps he could find his way out with Hope's help... but she's not bright enough for him. Her light is nothing compared to Dream's.

He knows she's hurting. He's the one causing her pain... the same ones Dream's mere presence caused him. He is Hope's Dream... torturing her with his every action. Yet, she still keeps on holding onto him... so he does the same... hoping that someday, she'll get him out of his misery.

For he, himself, knows the painful truth: He'll never have her because she's a dream that's way beyond Agony’s reach...

que sera sera...?

2007-08-30T17:39:00.000+08:00

"Happiness isn’t having what you want---it’s all about wanting what you have…"
Wow. I still can’t decide if I believe this or not.

But if you want something, you can work for it and thus by achieving it, you also obtain happiness, right? So does it mean there's no limit to the happiness one can have? That it all depends on how much effort one puts into getting what he / she wants? But why is it that there are times when no matter how hard you struggle, you still don't get what you want? Is there such a thing as predetermined future? If there is, then what's the point of trying and trying? If there is such a thing as destiny, and you're destined to fail, then regardless of your hard work, you're still doomed. Why even try??? Wouldn’t it make our lives pointless?

So, now, why are there people who seem to be “destined” to be alone? And why are there people who seem to have been born with all the luxury one could ask for… all the blessings one could be given (oh, the fortunate ones…)? Who decides who gets which destiny? Isn’t there anything we can do about it? (But if you believe in destiny, there’s nothing to do but accept it, right? Because it’s the “universe’s natural order”.) But how exactly do we know which of the things happening to us are destined to occur? How the heck would we know if we’re actually going against what’s predetermined for us?

Hmmm… Do I believe in destiny? I still don't know... I let it rule over my life for a long time… nothing happened. And I’m too much of a coward to try and go against it (that is, if I’m not actually destined to not do anything about it…).

Confusing! :)

graduate studies?

2007-08-30T10:00:00.000+08:00

just got another friendster mail from sir lounell... he asked me why i kept on shifting from one company to another (3rd pa lang naman a :D --> mobot batchmates, applicable din daw question na ito sa inyo :D)... and told me to also consider pursuing graduate studies... it made me remember that i actually was intending to take a post-graduate degree... (mimi, game?) just haven't decided if i'd take ms ee, mba, or law. hmmm... yet another thing to think about...

happily-ever-afters

2007-08-29T11:24:00.000+08:00

“And they lived happily ever after… The End.” Almost all fairytales end that way. After the hero or heroine (most of the time the latter) suffers, then comes his / her rewards… They usually come in the form of a prince for a husband (or a princess for Aladdin’s case), a kingdom to rule on and probably everything and anything he / she could wish for. But does it really end there?

Did the prince really love Sleeping Beauty considering she may be a century older than him (she’s probably older than his great grandmother! It may not show but still…)? Wouldn’t their beliefs clash (It’s been a hundred years… a lot must have changed)? How about Snow White? Would any sane girl willingly spend the rest of her life with a necrophile? He’d probably try and get her to eat another one of those blasted apples for all she knows… And Cinderella? Someone like her must have developed an obsessive compulsive nature and she just moved to a place probably ten (or more) times bigger… a palace! And how about her animal friends? Would they really be allowed inside?

Most of us have grown up watching Disney films and loving every character…wishing that someday we’ll have the same fates… (Of course we’re talking about the heroes and heroines who had their happily-ever-afters. Who’d want to end up like Malificent or the Evil Stepmother anyway?) But are they even close to what’s happening in real life? Or are we just fooling ourselves with the belief that everyone has a happy ending waiting for them? Say you found someone to spend the rest of your life with. Does it really end with the “I do”s? Of course not. Will everyone get a happy-ending? Probably not… Well, it depends on what you consider as “The End”.

fairytales

2007-08-28T08:02:00.000+08:00

found one of my old files... written last nov 2006... here's an abridged version of it.

I’ve always loved fairytales… As a child, I even asked Santa for a book filled with fairytales… and I got it :) The notion of a prince coming to a girl’s rescue or of love conquering all obstacles just appeal to me… Or maybe that should be “appealed”… Yes, I am past that disillusioned state. Somewhere along my teenage years, I’ve gone from the girl going giddy over a silly tale to the very cynical person I am now. I always loved love stories… I still do. But now, I finally understand that those things, the knight-rescues-damsel-in-distress stuff and those happily ever afters, they don’t really happen in real life… at least not to me… They make good plots for books, stories, movies, but not in my world, not in my life…

I’m no princess… I know that. I’ve long ago given up the idea that a Prince Charming will come my way and instead resigned myself to the fate of being alone. You can’t blame me. I have waited long enough. Sure, the other fairytale princesses didn’t get to meet their princes right from the start… but that’s just it. They ARE princesses. I simply am not. It’s harder to wait for something, to hope or dream for someone when you know for a fact that there’s a very big chance he won’t come… Sure, Rapunzel waited long enough for her hair to grow that long and Sleeping Beauty waited a hundred years. But Rapunzel was stuck in a tower. She didn’t have an inkling of what was happening in the outer world. She didn’t get tormented with seeing the man she’s pining for chase another girl nor did she had the chance to attend a party and feel totally left-out. She didn’t have friends who constantly remind her of her loneliness (they may not really mean it… they might not even be aware of it). And Sleeping Beauty? Well, she was SLEEPING through the years of waiting!!! And the moment she woke up, there he was… already waiting for her! How convenient is that?!? And what about me? My prince probably got stuck in a labyrinth… doomed never to find his way out. Or worse, he could have found some other princess while he was on his quest to find me and he decided to go and have his ‘happily-ever-after’ with her… But no matter what I say, it still boils down to the question: Have I really accepted a life alone? Or am I just saying it to try and convince myself? I don’t know… I won’t be waiting for my prince to come knocking on my door… but I’ll still keep my half of the glass slipper just in case he did get to my part of the town and still has his half waiting for mine…

long weekend

2007-08-26T20:33:00.000+08:00

so many things to do... so little time! :D
last night, had a get together with some friends (hopefully maulit :) and sana pati ibang friends magkaget together din :) ) and got home around 2 am. i thought the whole night would end well... but alas, malas ako!!! ahehehe... while entering the driveway, i didn't notice a protruding sharp end of the planter box in our gate and unfortunately got my right rear tire cut. hay... good thing may reserba... owel... have to buy a new tire ... :(

just today, we watched shutter ... hay... kagulat! :D

hmmm... ano kaya magawa bukas? :D

hmmm... ? or ?

2007-08-26T20:05:00.000+08:00

given the choice, who will you go for (if you can't have both)? the one you love or the one who loves you? most of my friends answered the former. call me selfish, but as of this very moment, i think i'd go for the latter. don't get me wrong... if i can have both, then by all means... :) but maybe i just got tired of waiting for the one i love that i'd now probably opt for the one who loves me ...

at last!!!

2007-08-26T19:48:00.000+08:00

at last!!! i've been meaning to get a blog eons ago but as always, i've placed it low on my priorities... but since i have a bit of free time, why not try? :)

just gonna share random thoughts on random things... comments are most welcome! :)